As we were bumping across the lake the second day. I realized I was having fun. Not that I usually don't have fun fishing. But I was not scared of the waves and wind and well, just the lake itself. I wasn't thinking about the boat flipping from the big waves. I wasn't thinking of the kids falling over. I was having fun, like I used too. Before something in me started to be afraid of things. Before I started having to take a deep breath before getting into a vehicle or boat or any motorized vehicle. Right now as I sat in the boat, the wind whipping through my hair and the tears flying off my face from the wind. I was feeling joy. This is what I had missed all the years I felt fear and apprehension at doing so many things. This is what I longed for. Fun and joy. Speeding across the lake with the wind whipping through my hair.....
Oh ya, we also caught a lot of fish!
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